I miss the seconds,
When,
Lost in your thoughts,
You would smile,
And not,
Cringe.
I miss the days,
When,
Your eyes would,
Sparckle with joy,
And not,
Weep.
I miss the weeks,
When,
You were only,
Lonely for someone,
And not,
Heartbroken.
I miss the years,
Before,
Everything went wrong,
You were a kid,
And not,
Used.
I miss my life,
When,
You didn't anchor,
Me down,
And I was,
Fireproof.
I miss you,
Innocence.
A Wallflower Poet
Monday, July 1, 2013
Wednesday, June 19, 2013
Harmless Death
Never have I,
Sipped anything stronger that a glass,
Of rich,
Dark,
Wine.
But what if,
I,
Want to,
Wake up,
Drunk,
For the rest,
Of my miserable,
Days.
Maybe after my blood,
Has turned to alchohol,
I will be able to eat,
And maybe,
Even,
See,
The people,
I hold close,
In my heart.
I would drink to forget life,
And remember them.
This is why I don't,
Smoke.
My life would me that,
40 seconds,
Of painless,
Drifting.
Hooked.
Somehow drinks seem,
So...
Harmless,
Even though I should know that this,
Is a lie.
I should know,
This the best.
So as my body,
And mind,
Crumbles,
Wilts,
And decays,
Please raise a parting glass,
Of wine for me.
Sipped anything stronger that a glass,
Of rich,
Dark,
Wine.
But what if,
I,
Want to,
Wake up,
Drunk,
For the rest,
Of my miserable,
Days.
Maybe after my blood,
Has turned to alchohol,
I will be able to eat,
And maybe,
Even,
See,
The people,
I hold close,
In my heart.
I would drink to forget life,
And remember them.
This is why I don't,
Smoke.
My life would me that,
40 seconds,
Of painless,
Drifting.
Hooked.
Somehow drinks seem,
So...
Harmless,
Even though I should know that this,
Is a lie.
I should know,
This the best.
So as my body,
And mind,
Crumbles,
Wilts,
And decays,
Please raise a parting glass,
Of wine for me.
Wednesday, June 12, 2013
Walking Alone
Empty,
Deserted
streets,
Except
for a few late night drunks.
Flashbacks,
A
new nightmare,
Screaming,
Yelled
cursing,
Glass
shattered.
I
refused,
I
chose to break their trust,
And
for that,
I
walk alone.
I
kick a poor stone,
Unfortunate enough to be in my path,
It
now resides in the gutter.
Tears
fall from my eyes,
I
refused,
The
words repeating in my head,
I
refused,
I
said no,
I
said no.
I
finally had friends,
They
were not what I expected,
A
hideous demon,
Behind
a seductive mask.
Smoke
filled the air,
Laughter,
Drugs
in every corner,
Everywhere,
Everything,
And
I refused.
Bound,
Arms
and legs,
Forcing
me into a high,
Making
me pay for my ‘mistake’
First
screaming,
Now
reduced to a whimper,
They
laughed in my face.
No
one came.
Flashing
lights,
Pounding
on the door,
Spitting
on my face on the way out,
Why,
Why
did they do this to me?
Oh
yeah,
I
was the ‘traitor’
Standing
on trembling legs,
I
walked away,
So
here I am,
A
proud high loner,
And
never again,
Will
I allow the monster,
To
enter me.
Friday, June 7, 2013
Friendly Stars
Dear friend,
Last night,
I cornered a thought,
Of betrayl.
As I whispered past,
My mothers room,
To see the stars,
I relized,
That I didn't see her as a mother,
Or even as a friend.
The questions I pondered,
As I stared at the stars,
Through a blury glass door,
Made me grieve.
Tears streamed down my face,
When I asked why this was.
But of course,
The constellations had no answer,
For these questions.
So as I drowned myself to sleep,
I reflected life.
Last night,
I cornered a thought,
Of betrayl.
As I whispered past,
My mothers room,
To see the stars,
I relized,
That I didn't see her as a mother,
Or even as a friend.
The questions I pondered,
As I stared at the stars,
Through a blury glass door,
Made me grieve.
Tears streamed down my face,
When I asked why this was.
But of course,
The constellations had no answer,
For these questions.
So as I drowned myself to sleep,
I reflected life.
Sunday, June 2, 2013
Plastic Lock
Once,
In a house,
I found a little chest.
It was fairly small,
No bigger than the palm of my hand,
Not large enough to hold many,
If any treasures,
Yet there was a little plastic,
Lock.
Thinking nothing of it,
I shoved it into my pocket,
And went on with my exploring.
On the walk home,
I took it out,
Cradled it in my hands,
And let my mind free.
When I did this,
Many ideas of what,
Was in the chest came to me.
Perhaps it was a lucky coin,
An old man found on his travels.
Or a shell,
A pregnant woman found on the beach.
Maybe even a bullet,
From World War II.
These are the things that came to mind,
As I sat,
With a pair of plyers,
I knew,
That I would not open it.
It was a chest of memories,
And secrets,
That were not mine.
The next day,
I returned it to the bare room,
In that house,
And before I left,
I took a picture,
Of the small,
Chest,
With a plastic lock.
In a house,
I found a little chest.
It was fairly small,
No bigger than the palm of my hand,
Not large enough to hold many,
If any treasures,
Yet there was a little plastic,
Lock.
Thinking nothing of it,
I shoved it into my pocket,
And went on with my exploring.
On the walk home,
I took it out,
Cradled it in my hands,
And let my mind free.
When I did this,
Many ideas of what,
Was in the chest came to me.
Perhaps it was a lucky coin,
An old man found on his travels.
Or a shell,
A pregnant woman found on the beach.
Maybe even a bullet,
From World War II.
These are the things that came to mind,
As I sat,
With a pair of plyers,
I knew,
That I would not open it.
It was a chest of memories,
And secrets,
That were not mine.
The next day,
I returned it to the bare room,
In that house,
And before I left,
I took a picture,
Of the small,
Chest,
With a plastic lock.
Friday, May 31, 2013
Numb Happiness
Beautiful,
A silver horn wrapped in dust,
And flecks of blood.
A mane of silver waves,
Seeping crimson.
Me,
And this,
Thing.
Stare ahead,
Eyes,
Never leaving,
The stars.
Numb Happiness,
So long,
It has been since,
I have felt this,
That it hurts.
A silver horn wrapped in dust,
And flecks of blood.
A mane of silver waves,
Seeping crimson.
Me,
And this,
Thing.
Stare ahead,
Eyes,
Never leaving,
The stars.
Numb Happiness,
So long,
It has been since,
I have felt this,
That it hurts.
Thursday, May 30, 2013
Spoken
You have your words,
As self-centered as they are,
Spewing beliefs,
As water.
At least you can speak,
Past lips.
Even if,
You are the victim,
In your own fiction.
At least you can spreak,
Past lips.
On a stage,
You will guide,
Expecting us to abide.
At least you can speak,
Past lips.
What about me,
And my selfish lies,
Will I enjoy the view as everyone dies.
How do I speak,
Past broken lips.
This philosophy,
That I own,
Wishes to be throned.
But how do I peak,
Past broken lips.
Into a room,
You lead me,
Letting the others be.
How do I speak,
Past broken lips.
Sitting at a table,
The chairs soften,
Into something like a coffin.
How do I speak,
Past broken lips.
With a crooked grin,
You speak words,
Like chess boards.
Teach me to speak,
Past broken lips.
I can speak,
And I now stand,
With this band.
As self-centered as they are,
Spewing beliefs,
As water.
At least you can speak,
Past lips.
Even if,
You are the victim,
In your own fiction.
At least you can spreak,
Past lips.
On a stage,
You will guide,
Expecting us to abide.
At least you can speak,
Past lips.
What about me,
And my selfish lies,
Will I enjoy the view as everyone dies.
How do I speak,
Past broken lips.
This philosophy,
That I own,
Wishes to be throned.
But how do I peak,
Past broken lips.
Into a room,
You lead me,
Letting the others be.
How do I speak,
Past broken lips.
Sitting at a table,
The chairs soften,
Into something like a coffin.
How do I speak,
Past broken lips.
With a crooked grin,
You speak words,
Like chess boards.
Teach me to speak,
Past broken lips.
I can speak,
And I now stand,
With this band.
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